Katy Perry Covers ‘Marie Claire,’ Talks Divorce, Kids, John Mayer
The 29-year-old singer, who evokes a seductive pop princess on the cover of the January 2014 issue, opens up about not having kids with ex-husband, Russell Brand, and her darkest hours following their December 2011 split.
“[Brand] really wanted me to have children, and I knew I wasn’t ready – I think it was a way of control,” she revealed to the mag. “I think it was part of, If I have a kid, then I would have to sacrifice – I’d have to be home more. I really wanted to, but I knew I wasn’t ready for it. It wasn’t like, ‘Hey, let’s have a kid because we’re in love.'”
After the couple split — which Brand initiated by sending her a text — Katy retreated and coped in an interesting way. “There were two weeks of my life after I found out the truth of my marriage where I was like, ‘OK. All right. I can’t feel this. This is too intense right now,'” she explained. “I was, like, just eating Flamin’ Hot Cheetos and drinking, and that’s it.”
“It was like a splash of cold water to search inward on what was going on with me. That is what let me to this new awakening, this realizing, If I don’t do some self-love, I’m not going to be able to keep the love that I want,” she added. “I still needed to deal with all of my ex-husband stuff. I hadn’t. It’s almost like if I kept talking about it, it would seem like I actually cared about it. I don’t.”
The Katy-centered issue hits newsstands on December 17, but KatyCats can check out her feature on MarieClaire.com.